I’m getting married in July. Holy crap I’m getting married in JULY! I know you’re meant to enjoy this delightful experience but right now I’ve sprouted so many grey hairs it’s getting silly and it’s all down to the wedding dress.
I’m about a stone heavier than I was last year. That’s really hard for me to even say as I’m totally embarrassed. I know the exact reason why and that’s because I’m eating all the things I shouldn’t and because I’m in a happier place. When people put on weight you’ll hear every excuse under the sun as to why it’s happened or why they can’t workout enough, mine is purely eating habits and the fact I’m no longer ‘sick’.
You may or may not remember but I lost quite a lot of weight down to a small 8, but it wasn’t healthy I was really poorly from my epilepsy after being recently diagnosed. My tablets encouraged up to 5 seizures a day which always left me weak and without an appetite, lucky now I’m on tablets which seem to be working *touch wood* and only once in a while do I have a wobble. So as you can imagine I’m over the moon and finally happy to be better…. but I’ve indulged so much more because of this… almost like when you get into a new relationship and you eat out all the time and put on weight, this is essentially just that.
I went wedding dress shopping with my Mum and felt so overweight and horrible I knew I needed to change. I should of loved that whole experience but I came away feeling stressed and blue. Not ideal hey? I’ve struggled with image quite a lot of my life, my Mum and sister are tiny but I seem to have gained my Dad’s genes and I’m that bit bigger. So I know I’m no size 6 or will ever be, but I came away thinking I needed to do something and rather fast.
It’s not my exercising because I’m nice and active, it’s my terrible eating. Okay it’s not terrible I’m just needing to switch some bits over and watch portion sizes. I’ve ordered my wedding dress and the one I did get doesn’t fit. I sat in a heap on the floor and cried. How have I let myself get to this? Luckily the wedding dress company have got a bigger size but will get to the store in May, so I’ve held on to the other to do a swap then. I have until the start of May to lose around 7 pounds basically.
7 pounds may not seem huge amounts but this is a friggin’ challenge because of my PCOS losing weight is 10 times harder. I need to trim off a few inches around my waist so basically I’m not overly bothered what the scales say it’s more about measurements. I’ve lost a couple of pounds already just making some switches but I don’t just want to lose weight for this, I need this to be a complete lifestyle overhaul. But I’m not going to lie I’m crapping myself with worry… what the hell if the size up doesn’t fit?! Arghhhh!!!!
I just want to look and feel fabulous so I’ve upped my exercise big time. I’m trying to do a workout of 40-50 minutes in the morning to burn fat before I eat, then I know if I can’t get anything else in that day then I’ve done something.
Any other brides to be like me having a slight panic? Or any or fancies a wedding buddy to encourage? Me and Remie from Remie’s Luxury Blog have joined forces to help each other along the way.