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I cannot believe I am telling you this, but I am back in the 9-5 and I’m seriously really really happy. Freelancing was great in parts but my goodness it was hard work and quite honestly I am so pleased to see it behind me. I did my blog full time and freelanced as a digital marketing consultant and I had an absolute ball for the first 3-4 months, but it soon started to crash…

Leaving the past behind 

I am so tired of holding onto bad experiences and dwelling on them. Even though I know there is absolutely nothing I can do about it, I somehow replay over and over in some kind of mental torture. I was very unhappy in my job before I went freelance, a combination of bad people, bad work ethics it  pushed me to breaking point. It sent me so far that I quit without having anything in concrete lined up. Dangerous. Something I have never ever done before.

Why was it dangerous? I had a mortgage to pay and my poor then boyfriend (now husband) was eventually going to take the hit for my actions. He was super supportive and has been throughout, but I’m pretty sure he is liking the fact I will get a normal pay packet each month now! Lots of people warned me, saying my blog wasn’t big enough and true it wasn’t, but I wanted to still freelance events management as well and do other bits to keep money coming in whilst I built it up.

Leap of faith 

I started off so so well and had great connections and plenty of good work, but as I say about 4 months later it sort of came to a halt. Freelance jobs pulled the plug due to their own money flow, causing my cash flow to become non existent. Each time I knew the mortgage was due, or my phone bill was coming out, all I could think about was what could I sell or what extra work could I grab. It was becoming a monthly nuisance rather than anything else. 

It wasn’t all bad, but it hasn’t been all good. I did get myself a solid plan in place but I actually found the market really tough. Whether it was because I was far more aware, but I noticed more and more bloggers saying they were going full time and loads were doing freelance. It was becoming harder to stand out. It got to breaking point when I simply would be spending days working on my own blog, which has certainly helped because my stats have hit numbers I’d never even dreamed of, however that doesn’t pay my bills. I needed a job again. 

Life changing

It has really opened my eyes up to the world, how people work and I feel like I understand the business world far more than I did. I got to do some amazing things because I had more time, travelling to Berlin with adidas to run the marathon, visiting South Africa, travelling to St Anton, seeing the Italian lakes, the list goes on but I couldn’t of done that without being freelance. 

Please pay me

I possibly spent most of my time chasing people to pay me. I had one situation where I nearly had to take out a court order, but when it got to that point after months and months of chasing they finally paid me. Looking at your bank balance religiously hoping money had gone in was one of my daily activities. Stressful is an understatement. It got to a point where I was wondering if we could even do a food shop that month or whether I had to make batches of soup to live off. 

Moving on 

Living where I do there isn’t much in the way of creative jobs which is why I did freelance in the first place. I felt like I was going to have a bit of a mid life crisis, because I started questioning what I wanted to do with my career. Skip about 4 months later and I finally landed the perfect job, working in distribution and social media. I can walk to work everyday and get my routine back. I won’t lie I am going to feel weird about missing out on events but at the end of the day, I would rather have money in the bank than be  coasting along.  Who knows what the future holds for me and my blog and youtube channel, but I know that I can time manage myself and juggle the lot. 

Feeling like a failure

Do I regret this? Nope. I’d of done it again but perhaps when I had more work lined up, it was just my current circumstances that forced me into it. Do I feel like I have failed? Well I debated for ages  about sharing this whole thing, and I actually don’t feel like I am. I tried and didn’t quite work out, or was what I was expecting. I need structure and freelance doesn’t give me that. Thinking about going full time? Just be careful and don’t leap to easily consider getting a part time job so you have some income guaranteed. Hope you’ve found my story useful, I’d love to hear your thoughts. 



  1. November 30, 2016 / 1:41 pm

    It's a bad news that you are quitting Blogging, but I am Happy for you.
    Hope you don't completely forget sharing your tales 🙂

  2. November 30, 2016 / 4:19 pm

    Well done for doing what is best for you. I hope the new job will be great.

    Having your own small business or being freelancer means a lot of stress, so it's a matter of choice. I don't think you failed, it didn't work, it's similar to having a job it's lovely but not paid enough and you get another one. x

  3. December 2, 2016 / 7:51 am

    Such honesty and I really understand with the payment chasing etc it's frustrating. Sometimes having that secure monthly payment is more stress free x

  4. December 2, 2016 / 11:57 am

    Well done on landing yourself a job you love and well done for taking the leap at a time you obviously needed to.

  5. December 2, 2016 / 1:43 pm

    Well done for hitting the publish button Annie. It's important to share the fact that blogging full time is not easy and behind the scenes everything take a lot of hard work. It's by no means failing because through the more difficult times you've kept going and even though you've taken a full time job, you'll still keep writing but you'll have the security and that regular pay coming in without having to chase it, which in turn will make you a happier blogger! You've got to be happy with whatever you do, whether that be full time, part time, or purely for as a hobby. Well done you!

  6. December 2, 2016 / 2:38 pm

    I have a free lance job (I translate movies) but I also have a main job because I need to have the security of a regular salary etc. Working as a free lance is so stressful, I completely understand why you decided to stop. Good luck for the rest now 🙂

    Mika |

  7. December 2, 2016 / 3:54 pm

    As a freelancer, I can definitely see where you're coming from. I would never make blogging my main job – as much as I love it and admire those who do, I love the fact it is a hobby and I don't have to worry about chasing payments or the likes.

    – Elodie x

  8. December 2, 2016 / 8:26 pm

    I have never considered full time blogging before because personally i love my current full time job and I know how hard and competitive the freelancing gig can be. You've learnt something I am sure and next time (if there is one) you will know what to do.

  9. December 2, 2016 / 9:30 pm

    I quit a job this year with nothing concrete, and too don't regret it. Sometimes you have to do these things. Makes you appreciate what you do a bit more. Enjoyed this post as related to a lot despite never going full time with blogging x

  10. December 2, 2016 / 10:19 pm

    I hear you, its why I am still working so many jobs because I am not getting enough money from blogging to quit. As much as I dislike it in a way doing more than one job is good because it gets me moving unlike if I did blogging full time which would mean I would be glued to my computer screen for hours on end.

  11. December 2, 2016 / 10:41 pm

    well done on getting your dream job and I love the honesty in this post x

  12. December 2, 2016 / 11:31 pm

    I am currently in a similar situation to you were 4 months ago. I am being made redundant at the end of the year and am struggling to find new work so I am throwing myself in to the blogging and vlogging and I currently run 2 blogs and vlogs and a third channel coming in Jan. I know it's a lot to take on so I am going to try and find part time work or go temp or 0 hours contract or something so I can really try and make a go of it without putting pressure on our income as a couple x I think it's amazing what you have done here though – it's definitely helped me x

  13. December 3, 2016 / 12:11 pm

    Well done on getting your dream job. Freelancing can be very hard. I blog full time and I do freelance writing and PR and I know how hard it can be sometimes. But it works for me.

  14. December 3, 2016 / 3:47 pm

    Well done Annie, glad you've shared this! It's so important to have stability, you have to do what's right for you! You got a lot of experience out of it and your blog will continue to be successful! x

  15. December 4, 2016 / 5:15 pm

    i think its great how you gave full time a shot and that you don't regret it. everything is worth trying once

  16. December 4, 2016 / 5:56 pm

    I'd love to give full time blogging a shot but it just seems so hard, I'm glad you followed your dreams and did it though x

  17. December 4, 2016 / 9:06 pm

    I know where you are coming from, I enjoy my full time job and blogging on my spare time! 🙂

  18. December 5, 2016 / 7:44 am

    Thank you for sharing this. It's easy for people to see full time blogging with rose tinted glasses and so many people do this, without really knowing what they are getting themselves in to. Obviously, I'm super happy that you are happy and enjoying what you do! And you still have a super blog to boot!
    Bee |

  19. December 5, 2016 / 9:22 am

    This was a fascinating read, it is so good to see that you bring another side to blogging into the frame as a lot of people assume it is something that is easy and straightforward and it isn't, not at all!

  20. December 5, 2016 / 10:01 pm

    As a freelancer for the past five years I hear all this loud and clear, it is tough and getting tougher, it is a saturated market, but good for you for giving it a go.

  21. December 16, 2016 / 10:02 am

    Thank you for sharing your experience! I really enjoyed this post it shows how hard blogging actually is and that it is fine working on your blog along side having a full time job (like me)!

    good luck with your new job! And merry Christmas

    Bethan xx

  22. December 18, 2016 / 9:16 pm

    I have friends doing freelance that have mixed views. It can be great for some part of "Freedom", and you can travel to some wonderful places, meet fantastic people and experience things you didn't think you would; but it also means you're almost constantly chasing your tail or someone else's. It can be a hard choice.

    I think finding what is right for you is more important. I wish you all the best on your path and hope that you can still enjoy blogging, just for yourself.

  23. February 21, 2017 / 3:55 pm

    Lovely post and photographs! I really admire your blog, and it definitely inspires me to up my own blogging game. Keep up the amazing work!! 🙂

    Roslyn Rachel:

  24. July 25, 2017 / 6:35 pm

    It must have been a tough decision to make Annie but it sounds like it's for the best. There's no point worrying about money and it in no way means that you've failed. You've given it a go, it's another life experience and it's always better to say "I did that" rather than "What if?". I hope everything goes well for you in your new job 🙂

  25. November 29, 2017 / 11:35 pm

    Thank you for sharing your journey as a freelancer and blogger. I think it is important to do what makes you happy, and if you felt it was time to move on in order to have peace of mind and happiness, then good for you. I am sure your experience has taught you some life lessons too. So glad you decided to publish this post, just look at the amount of people you have helped. Good luck in your new job. It sounds perfect for you! ?

  26. April 11, 2018 / 10:37 am

    Just came across your post – thank you for your honesty. Freelancing works for some people, but not all. A mortgage adds another heap of stress on top. I currently work 4 days a week in London (steady income!) and then run a small creative business on the side, plus I write 2 blogs (one for the business and one dance-related). As a blogger I regularly feel and try to ignore the chase of online competition and success stories with full time bloggers or crafters who have ‘made it’. I think a lot of the time online we don’t get the full picture (i.e. the City Banker husband in the background funding it all!). There’s no shame in quitting – at least you tried!

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